Hello everyone. I've been so focused on trying to forget all the miseries in my life, that I know I've been neglecting this space for quite a while. My life has nothing to be updated about, except for the fact that I'm in my very depressed period. A trend I've realised that occurs every Oct-Nov period. For the past 5 years of my life, this period has always been the worst of the year. And it has always got something to do with my love life. I hope something good happens next month, next year. I hope the right one will come along to break this disgusting spell of mine.
One resolution I needa have for the upcoming year will be to stop skipping school so frequently. Every week, I struggle to have full attendance for at least 3 out of 7 days. Every day, I struggle to wake up. Every hour, I fight my mindset to go to school. Every minute, I fight with myself to just forget about the one I love and focus on my studies.
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Even though you were not one of those whom I've spent the longest time with, but the impact you left in my life is one of the biggest. That's why this time, it's harder for me to let go. The experiences we've been through, the times where we fight to be together because of love. I don't know how you can let all these fade away so easily, I wish you can teach me how.