I was reading The New Paper when I came across this. Spoke what I was feeling.
And last night, I caught HIMYM and they explained "The Lobster Theory". Imagine you loved lobster and your doctor told you that you're allergic to it. You realised that you you can never have it ever again. You didn't dare to believe it, and one day, you gorged yourself with lobsters. That's where your whole body swelled up and it created a phobic reaction on you since then.
This same theory applies to love. You might be one of those who will want something when you can't have it, and will dump it once you've gotten it. So like the lobster theory, if you can't have that something, you'll fight to have it for the one last time. And after that, you dump it because you've gotten it. Maybe I'm just like that too. I did not want it when it wanted me, but now I'm starting to fall for it because it doesn't want me anymore...
That explains why when I said I have 2 in my heart. It pains me to see that my ex is suffering, but I'm so fucking tempted to go with someone else who can make me happy. I'm not a player, I'm just someone who's very confused. Maybe it's because of the transition? I don't know. Such is life.
