Irritated.

To clear any misunderstandings and stop any assumptions based on the surface ONLY, I am neutral. I admit that I don't really like her character, but we used to be best of the best friends. So even after all the shit she did to me, I still regard her as a good friend. I accept her for who she is since people do change. Maybe you guys think that I take sides because I hang out with Nana & co. more. But let me tell you something, I don't care who I'm hanging out with so long they're fun to be with. Cause I'm super sick of everyone being like this and that, I rather forget and forgo everything and just have fun. You all know me, I like and just wanna have fun. It just so happened that Nana and co. bothered more, that's why.


Since I've never seriously told anybody how I really felt, I shall say some things out here once and for all. So hear me out yeah? Me being me, sorry if I'm harsh or offensive.


Meryl;
I think I'm kinda amazing to just let things go just like that (I mean, you know, I. am. not. like. that. one.), all the shit you did and etc. But like what people always say, everyone deserves a second chance. I was given a second chance too (Even though I didn't do anything?), so I don't see why can't you have 1 too. But just right after a few days, I don't know why the relationship between us is freezing again. It's like so sudden? It makes me feel as though you're the one calling the shots. It's like you're choosing when you wanna be friendly to us. Monday cold, Tuesday friendly. It irritates the hell outta me especially when I'm trying to close one eye and just have fun with everyone. No matter what, I still treat you as a friend. You guys might say, I'm a friend and I'm saying all these? Hey, it's because I care and bother that's why I say and do. I don't care if Ridwan's gonna say I'm childish for typing all these or whatever. This is my blog so I can express how I'm feeling.

(PS: If you wanna know what shit is it, ask me. But I doubt you will because you think that only Mabelle and Qianning care so they are your true friends. Right so?)



Mab;
Yez Mab, I was unhappy because I don't like us to be separated, it's very ugly. Others don't give a damn. I am different. I don't like separation. & What's more, we were all ok. (I THINK? Even though I don't know why the sudden coldness again.) So why must we sit separately? Leave Meryl? I don't quite get this part. +, I really think you're a great friend and I know you helped me a lot. That's why I wasn't happy. & People don't necessarily act the same as they think. So me hanging out with Nana more often doesn't mean I'm on their side. I know you and Meryl tried telling me who my friends are, & the other side did the same thing. I'm the kind who gets psycho-ed easily. But this time, I really stood in the middle. Because I know both sides were in the wrong, so I'll be the ultimate dumb one if I were to take sides. Like you said, be with people whom you're comfortable with. If you still think I'm not a true friend or whatever, then it's never mind already because I've said what I wanted to say. I hope you get my point.



The rest;
I don't understand why everyone just cannot let everything go. What's the point of condemning. What's the point of making lives difficult for others. Why can't we just sit together like every other Wednesday recess? The 10 of us. We had fun. Do you guys remember? No I don't think so. Honestly, I am very sad. Because in this group, no one genuinely cares and bothers for EVERYONE. ): I don't know why I still see us as 10, & I'm prolleh the only one who does that.
It's very very hurting, but I guess I got to face the music. WHAT HAS BECOME OF US?!

& No one has the right to say who is who's true friend or best friend.

You know what guys, I have a whole lot more to say.

Everyone in the 10 Girlfriends deserves a good scolding (except Myra), EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US. But what's the point already? I don't know.

Horrible shit.


& Lastly, being neutral means either you tell on both sides or you just shut up.
Yes, THAT is what I call fair and SERIOUSLY neutral.

Thus, NOBODY IN OUR GROUP IS SERIOUSLY NEUTRAL.


& To idiots out there, don't act like you guys know all the shit just because you guys hear a bit of here and there. Shut. your. fucking. big. mouth. and. use. your. assholes. to. think. you. brainless. cbs.


You guys wanna curse me, go ahead.
But this is how I really am feeling.

Period.