*Piang Piang Piang Piang.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
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I'm confounded in my love sector. Is this really love, or just a wayward in my affections? Figuring this out is like beating a dead horse. All I know is that I can't stop myself from smiling whenever I see you. I'll start having a heart beating race with runners. My heart just beats and beats when we stare into each others' eyes while 100% of my inside longs for you to make a change. But the moments will always end abruptly with us turning our heads away. All for a word? A word that turned my life into discombobulation. This is so crazy and lame. What are we actually even fighting for?
My heart just shatters whenever I see things I hate to see. Every single day, without fail. God, why are you like this? It hurts, a lot. Yet, I still wake up everyday with a pinch of hopefulness in seeing your name appearing in my Inbox. But no, no more. Everything is gone, at least for now. Or will it be forever? No, I repeat myself, please don't become a memory of mine. I don't want us to end. Yes, I regretted. Utterly regretted. Regretted for not telling you the truth earlier on, and only to push myself into this hole of grieveness once again. I'm sorry, really sorry. I should've realised you earlier. Hold on, you don't even know that I'm actually referring to you. Owell, I hope you're smart enough to lock the hints.
All I wish for now is things to be the way it used to be. I miss arguing with you, plus the whole shit load of sweet things you'll say & do at the end. It was nice. No, nice is not enough to express how I truly felt. Boy, I just wanna tell you something. I didn't confess about how I truly felt (Owell, am still feeling.) because I had reasons. I didn't tell you that you're cute, you're lovable, you're special, and that you've been holding a special place in my heart too, right in your face. I had reasons. Reasons like I'm not ready, I just wanna have fun now. Oh yeah, why am I even saying all these now? Oh, because I missed the chance. The chance to tell you how I really felt. So people, don't ever let go of any chances if you don't wanna bring regrets to heaven with you.
I miss you, really.